love, Your daughter

The feeling of getting older kinda scare me. Ahhhh.. never thought will live up till today. I mean I am truly thankful yet I am kinda fearful. There's always uncertainties in life and etc but yeah.. I wanna continue to learn to put my trust  in GOD for my present and future. So it's another day of celebration. I have so many things to ask for from my Father. The best gift is always from Him and I am truly looking forward to put one by one request later. ha ha ha..

God is really really good. In all my years... be it good or bad.. God has NEVER abandoned me. When I wish for people to be by my side 24 hours, I've learnt that it's impossible. Even best friends abandoned us when we need them the most. SO I learn... I learn to trust people and get disappointed. I learn to trust again.
I learn to lean on God alone. When I fail and distant myself from God, He did not force me. He gave me time to struggle. He is still there watching over me and ever willing to accept me back when I come back to Him. Yes I love Him.

God who provides all my need.

God whom I believe sent me people to inspire me, encourage me and etc when I can't hang on anymore.

God of my PAST, PRESENT & FUTURE.

Almighty God! =)

I realize and I've experienced many times how people exploit us in ways we never expect from them but well.. Need to learn to be tough like all other women around the world! Golongan yang selalu ditindas di seluruh dunia tak lain tak bukan WANITA eventhough we are in 21st century! THat also make me realize we CAN NEVER be an atheist because  we CANNOT live without GOD. Not praying not depending on God makes LIFE IMPOSSIBLE TO LIVE!

Thank You so much for knowing me so well - more than I understand myself. Thank You for bearing with me all these years. Thank You because I know You will still continue to take care of me. Thank You. Thank You for sending people in my life who believe I can do it. Who put their trust in me. Thank You. Thank You also for sending people who make my life in such difficult situation so that I might learn to be more patient and wise. Thank You that life ain't always smooth so that I can testify Your goodness in the midst of my hardship to others and encourage them - though life isn't bed full of roses but knowing YOU walk with  us and our helper in times of need is comforting.. n You did answer prayers! It makes life to exciting when prayers are answered. Of course when You are silent and prayers are not answered.. life seems so down but it's not forever. Life gets back on track and when we discover the reason.. thank You for not answering certain prayers. Thanks again. =)

Love always,
Your daughter =)

Live or die!

We are never good enough and we will never be good enough. Like during my lecture time .. I learn so much!! I learn part and parcel of life especially during public international law tutorial. We should strive to be the BEST, not only good ones. Huh! If u think you are good, wait till you be a lawyer. If you think being a lawyer is great, wait till you go to international division!!! People see you from head to toes!! Everything about you is very important. The way you carry yourself and etc. Of course the most important thing is your intellect. If you are so pretty yet no brain..then it's so pointless. I'd rather know someone who use their brain than someone who looks pretty or handsome. Competition is so great yet how many of us strive to be the best? Life is all about survival. Either you live or die. I choose to live. I can choose to die. But many times, I've chosen to live despite circumstances and people whom I really can't stand! Guess I start to love law.. not only that, I love to learn from someone especially my public international lecturer who's knowledge is something that I truly admire. And I don't simply admire someone especially if you don't use your brain in many ways!!

LIFE. 

Wise person

Talked to wise person today and feel better I think but still, I can't sleep. Sigh. I am glad that I'm able to trust people who are really close to God whom I can share with. To God be the glory always and forever. There are so many things in life which are too heavy to carry alone and we need someone to walk this journey with me. 

when it's all been said and done

When ALL HAS BEEN SAID AND DONE..why bother?

Not sure if law save me. But it definitely do in the meantime. For some reason, I thank God for the law. 

So called modern era

I long for a real conversation. Living in society that's moving towards digital era..it's getting harder n harder to have conversation with someone else (usually u see people who's eating will play with their phones n etc..there's no conversation going on at all).. If those days when u say "Hey let's catch up!" it means that we really meet and catch up with one another but today when we say that.. it means makan n showing off who's phone is better. That's all. BORING. OR I PREFER TO CALL IT BOOING! Those days people have no choice when they don't own smartphones. They try to make conversation and eventually it gets better and better. You'll see family laughing at one another's joke..sharing about their days during eating time n etc etc. How fun! I seriously don't see that anymore these days. =( how sad. Kids no longer run around. Instead, they are content sitting and playing with their I Pad.

Having conversation is one thing like asking how are you n etc..but having real conversation is another thing. Not to say that there's fake one... real conversation means really share about your life (physically..mentally and also spiritually if u believe in God lah).

Moving further n further away from something...

It's becoming so NORM. If you don't own a smartphone..u can only watch your friend playing with his/her smartphone which obviously he/she is more interested in than talking to you. Such an IMBALANCE life. Sucks! The same goes now for me. If I am not interested talking at all, playing with smartphone is always the best choice to rescue you from boringnesss. Ah! It's such a silent killer.

Likewise.... today it's becoming so norm to sleep around and have free sex to TEST whether your partner is good in bed or not. Someone said this in class today when asked by another person whether does she practise FREE SEX. Her answer is no and the  reply was this...

" HOW CAN YOU IMPRISONED YOUR LUST?"

ha ha ha! Interesting! hmmmph.

Handphone..sex.. eventually it will become custom.

PIL

When you are nobody in this world.. you are really a nobody. Today my lecturer was saying how she pretended to be the poor and asked for donation from some institution. She said she was treated rather badly. People there was like screaming at her and treated her like rubbish dump.

Yet when she goes to church (mind you, she's not Christian neither a chinese), she told the church fella how she's so poor n husband dead d (konon lah wanna act only).. n they invited her in the church n told her let's talk.

See the difference?

When you have brain..let's think before you talk. Sometimes I wonder..coming out of so called zaman jahilliah.. are we? We really come out from zaman jahilliah d ka? hmmmph. Still as dumb as ever..still as immoral as ever n etc etc.

Life as it is.


My dream is to be able to travel to the whole world and see others culture to open up my mind =) ah. Public International Law  makes me wanna know about other countries too and open up my mind to many things I never think before. 

W/o Law?

Can we live without law?

I really doubt so. This is because human nature is evil. Even with law, men tend to break them..what more if there's no law to govern men. For example, those days when people make agreement, they take each other words as proof. Yes means yes and no means no! However, in today's context, everything has to be written in black and white because we can no longer trust people based on their words alone. They can manipulate their words easily and caused harm to another party. Thus, if there's no law, one party will always be jeopardized by another party due to the evil nature of men. Another example is related to traffic law. If there's no rules and regulations about traffic, the rate of accidents are definitely gonna be very high! Laws are meant to be safeguard and guidelines to fellow citizens so that situations can be controlled. For example, if there's no guidelines for the people to stop when the traffic light turns red, the situation will turn havoc. Thus, living without law can cause havoc in the society.

Besides, we are not living in a society that's equal. Therefore, dominant party might harm the less dominant party in whatever transaction they are in if there's no law. OF course even with law, there's always harm being done to someone and that's why cases are brought before the court. It's meant to enable the victim to get access to JUSTICE. To live without law, we must accept that no one has any privilege and authority over anyone else which is so IMPOSSIBLE.

Furthermore, everyone's moral values differ from each other. Let's say A believe that it's alright to have sex with anyone of any age as long as they agree with one another but B might not agree so. Therefore, if there's one permanent law to regulate such thing, it's easier to have guidelines on what is right and what is wrong especially when dispute arises.