2012

What have I done in 2011? It's one of the worst year yet one of the best year as well. Worst because this year I experience accident.. and other dangers as well. But it's one of the best year because I get to complete my thesis under my mentor and being 3rd yr student is quite fun also =))

I learn a lot and yes.. I love reading law.

No doubt 2012 will bring more challenges and tears and pain but in the midst of all that, I know I will laugh and enjoy 2012 as well.

=)

May God make our year a happy one!

Not by shielding us from all sorrows and pain,

But by strengthening us to bear it, as it comes;

Not by making our path easy,

But by making us sturdy to travel any path;

Not by taking hardships from us,

But by taking fear from our heart;

Not by granting us unbroken sunshine,

But by keeping our face bright, even in the shadows;

Not by making our life always pleasant,

But by showing us when people and their causes need us most,

and by making us anxious to be there to help.

God’s love, peace, hope and joy to everyone for the year ahead! ♥♥

Blessed New Year folks! 

My dearest mentor

Yesterday I watched a movie entitled To Save a Life. That movie really touched my heart.. In some ways, I could relate to that show because it concerns college students and yes - some struggles are very very real! Then it made me think that without some people in my life, I wouldn't be who I am today. Thus, today I gave a card to someone because I know without this person, somehow I won't be this Esther this semester. I love to see her smile.. pop in her room to listen to her advise... complaint to her.. and she'll encourage me. Yeap - I always come out from her room feeling better. I truly need that and I know she speaks the truth. Where those days I had Beatrice, Carol, Swe Jyan n others to share with..now they no longer in UKM. =( life is really tough.

I truly thank God for sending people who care for me and love me for who I am in university especially in my faculty. Otherwise, I know I could not cope.

One of her reply was.. " My prayers and love will always wrap you in sadness and in happiness". =))) I'm really touched and yeah - she's really like a mother to me. I thank God for her. I know I can be the real me in front of her.

Blessed Christmas and Happy New Year 2012

One of many things that I am thankful for this semester is that I'm pampered much by my lecturer. =) treated like her own daughter.. =))

She taught me so much.. skills that I can use in other subjects as well. She correct me.. she has good sense of humour - always ready to listen and give her opinion. See? How awesome is she. I love just to pop in her room - talk - that is more than enough that someone has listening ear and encourage me.

So cool right my lecturer. =) And she's not a Chinese. So what? I really really don't like to mix with a single race only. That's so not Malaccan lah.

I am really really thankful to learn from someone who's so professional yet she has heart for her students =)

Nonetheless, I am thankful for Beat and Swe Jyan and Carol who's always there helping me though they are no longer in UKM. Awesome seniors =) Without them, I wonder sometimes how did I pull through. But of course in the midst of all these, I know God is always with me. Without God, my work is not my work. Really. I can't do much without God. It is God who gave me ideas to write.. giving me good health..strength and etc. =)

It's Christmas eve. So fast. Its time to enter into New Year pretty soon - 2012. I kinda like the number. hehehee.. Hopefully it'll be a good year leaving all the tragic happenings behind - looking forward towards new challenges and new adventure =) Sweet memory will always be remembered =)

Blessed Christmas and Happy New Year 2012.

Ah! Time flies. Entering into third year second sem soon. Wow!!!

Daffodils

When we were in the woods beyond Gowbarrow Park, we saw a few daffodils close to the water side. We fancied that the lake had floated the seed ashore and that the little colony had so sprung up. But as we went along there were more and more and at last under the boughs of the trees, we saw that there was a long belt of them along the shore, about the breadth of a country turnpike road.

I never saw daffodils so beautiful they grew among the mossy stones about and about them, some rested their heads upon these stones as on a pillow for weariness and the rest tossed and reeled and danced and seemed as if they verily laughed with the wind that blew upon them over the lake, they looked so gay ever dancing ever changing.

This wind blew directly over the lake to them. There was here and there a little knot and a few stragglers a few yards higher up but they were so few as not to disturb the simplicity and unity and life of that one busy highway. We rested again and again. The Bays were stormy, and we heard the waves at different distances and in the middle of the water like the sea.

— Dorothy Wordsworth, The Grasmere Journal , Thursday, 15 April 1802

Tak kenal maka tak cinta

Tak kenal maka tak cinta. Yes. I fall in love.

I'm in love with my thesis.

Now I know what area I want to practice in the future.

I am thankful for my beloved supervisor who taught me SO MUCH! I love meeting her and talk to her. I had fun learning and of course stress as well. Ha ha! But my supervisor is really nice. Treating us (including me) like her own child. Really. Guess that's her gift. Not many lecturers can do that.

Above all, I thank God who enable me to finish my thesis from zero. =)

Thank You Lord.

Christmas is in the air

I love December.

I love hanging out..relaxing..buying gifts and listening to christmas songs in malls.

Will I experience this again?

Currently I'm stuck with thesis, assignments, test and so many more which really don't allow me to go out. ='(

December oh December..

Few more days and it'll be 2012. It's the year I've been looking forward too =) and I shall leave behind all my tragic, pain and sorrows in 2011. tho.. I will definitely keep sweet memories close to my heart =)

Welcome 2012 soon =)

Jingle bell..jingle bell..

We wish you a merry christmas..

Silent night..holy night =)

I love all the Christmas song.

Oh wait! Let's not forget JESUS who came to earth on this beautiful day. He was born as a baby.

No wonder Christmas is such a beautiful month. =)

Thank You Lord Jesus for coming down from heaven. =)

Love You always Jesus.

Even though You are in heaven now, but I know You always watch over us. I know. =) and I thank You for that. It's really a comfort though I can't see You. =)

Blessed Christmas. ha ha.

Desire

Desire.

There's always unending desires in our life.

Desire for good food, good companionship, this and that...

But men's desire for love will never end.

They will always thirst for love. 

$$ vs talent

In Malaysia, we are so used to things don't work. In Singapore, the problem is that EVERYTHING WORKS! HA HA (According to Harith Iskandar). Last few months, I lodged a complain to the office in my hostel regarding the toilet. (Only 1/2 toilets can be used and that one also spoil!) Well, as usual, the dear office is very "fast" in their work and took few months later to check on it. Which I wonder why spend so much of your time gossiping in the office? No self improvement at all. It's quite norm and they like to shout at students because they have power over us. Alright.. be patient.

Now that they repaired the toilet but still it's quite smelly ( I wonder did they really hire right workers?)... and the lights spoil!! If we on the toilet's light, the whole floor will BLACKOUT. SO it didn't help that much. We have to go to another block to use the toilet. It's been 3 weeks.

Studying in local university isn't that nice but I'm grateful for the opportunity although I would've opted for overseas if I have the money. I've stayed in NUS before and I must say I ADMIRE THEIR HOSTEL VERY MUCH! It's user friendly - environment friendly and etc etc. Perfect for students. 


Then I wonder why some people like to make life miserable for others? Just like some laws.. people like to enact something they like - not considering the voice of the people although the problem has remained there over the years. The same goes with my college and everywhere I guess. So get use to it.

Reality is always so different from theory. I get so bored studying nowadays because none of it will apply when I work. Most often than not, to get something in the REAL WORLD, it ought to involve money. Why is that so? How come talents are not appreciated? How come money always find it's way and WIN most of the time when it fight with TALENT? 


I am really hoping that lots of DATUKS AND DATINS FROM ANY KEMENTERIAN WILL VISIT MY FACULTY. You know why? It's because when they do.. our life will be better. They will START REPAIRING this and that.. beautifying the faculty for the minister and etc. =) And I really think Minister should do that since election is coming near. lol. Students voice don't really matter that much. Minister matters more. I remember when I was young.. whenever Prime Minister/YDPA come to my hometown..suddenly you will see the road being tarred.. and everything looked nice and well. All is well out of sudden. Haih.. We pay tax but we only get to enjoy them when Minister decided they will pass by that place and etc.. Cis! 

Smile. Laugh. Be happy. Be humble.

I was really taken aback when I mistakenly address a "Datuk" as "Madam". Got stern warning. Well, whatever! At first I had the intention to ask this particular Datuk about something then when she replied me with warning tone, ah.. forget about it. 

That's the thing in life .. Be it you are a Datuk/Datin/...., what's so big deal about it? Okie maybe it's really a big deal. But in 21st century, is it still a big deal? It seems like anyone and everyone can be Datuk easily. When you was born in this world, people also call you by your name till the day before you got your title "Datuk" and then you start insisting everyone to call you Datuk. No matter what, you will still grow old and die what...So what's the big deal with insisting people calling you "Datuk" - unfriendly faces, disgust with students and etc etc? 

Okie..I'm from UKM and I know people don't look high upon UKM students and neither do I because throughout my years of studying... people have been telling us the same thing that they look down on us. SO why bother. I didn't quit studying..I will persevere till the end. Thanks to those who always make our life so miserable. My goal is just to grad, practice and earn money. Of course.. be happy with what I do. Guess that's what really matters in the end. After all that, then I can start thinking of other things... like maybe joining human rights body and etc. See how the wave goes. 

When you are nobody, you are really nobody. I have to learn the hard way in many ways... It's not like anyone is there to help me but it's all part and parcel of learning. As for some things in life, we ought to learn it through our own experience. I don't have relatives who are Datuk/Datin... Perhaps if you do, your life will be easier or maybe more miserable. Ha ha. LIfe is short lah. Be happy and humble. =) And people will remember you for life =) Not only that, you will live satisfying life too! =) 

Again... what really makes me happy these few days was the fact that I attended a charity dinner last week and Marina Mahathir was there. I didn't really know that she was coming. Guess what? When I first approach her to snap photo, she agreed right away with her smiley look. Okieeee.. I thought, "That's something unusual for a Datuk." 

I've always perceived a Datuk as someone who never smile - arrogant - usually do something nice for some particular reason that will only benefit them and etc etc.. Most often than not, they always prove me right - which is quite unfortunate. 

Well then, let me continue with Marina..Ok her full name would be Datin Paduka Marina Mahathir. Sounds grand lah her title. That time, the lights are so dim ..and the pictures I took with her end up so dark and you can't see who's in the photo. THen I adjusted the mode in my phone but still the picture resulted the same. Oh ya! Before that, I took some time to adjust and she waited patiently. It's quite normal if she would've shown agitated or annoying face but she didn't. THat day itself, I took 4-5 photos with her but only 1 photo is clear. Even then, she smile just the same in all the photos. I mean if we were to swap position, I would've ask, "Ai yo..take so many pics also take cukup ka..?" None of that sort happened. She's as polite and as smiley as ever. That's why I have such beautiful memory of her although she don't even remember my existence already..ha ha.

You know the way she smiles.. chinese would've said, "You smile like you pick up gold from somewhere..." No big deal snapping photos with  people who are not Datuks/Datins but she did agree anyway and smile all the same =) While I was waiting for my turn to snap photo with her AGAIN, I watched as others talk to her..take turn to snap photo with her and etc. One of the many things that I like...

- She smile to everyone and friendly to all - be it you are lady/man, be it you are chinese/indian/malay/mat salleh/etc etc...( That's what I call 1 MALAYSIA spirit)

There's FRIENDLY AND HAPPY ATMOSPHERE surrounding her =)) 

Then I shake hand and thank her before I leave. 

She's really DIFFERENT. Different in a good way.

Back to the unfriendly Datuk that I met today... I lose my respect altogether for her although she's quite well known. So what. In the end of the day, she left me real bad impression about her. Yes I am bothered by it but today I learn..

TITLE IS SO IMPORTANT TO SOME PEOPLE THAT THEY FORGOT THE VERY BASIC OF HUMANITY.

When I finally graduate and practice.. I would like to keep this close to my heart which is to be happy and humble always =) Happy doesn't mean literally happy all the time. That's important also but what's more important is the joy of the Lord in us that enable us to be JOYFUL in the midst of SORROW. 

To be able to laugh and smile always like Datin Paduka Marina Mahathir, it's indeed a gift. I've met people who don't know how to laugh. Really. Isn't it sad? No wonder those who don't know how to smile/laugh easily, they don't like to snap photos because all will turn out ugly - CHARCOAL FACE. They stuck in their own world facebooking/doing all the nonsensical stuff till they lost touch how to communicate in the REAL WORLD. I really feel sad for these people.

If you can laugh, laugh always. It's a gift. I love laughing moments with my friends and I remember those moments when we can laugh for half an hour or more. Beautiful =) 

Smile. Laugh. Be happy. Be humble. God bless. May God's joy, peace, love, grace and mercy always envelope you =)

Fantastic people

I miss her so much because I am so INSPIRED by her. Honestly, I really love to hear success story (Who don't right..) and I love meeting the successful person herself/himself. How I wish I get the chance to talk to them... what really motivates and inspire them to do all these things that benefit the people... Hmmph. Interesting. =)))

Studies are interesting but meeting people out there are even more interesting. ha ha. I mean meeting RIGHT PERSON k.

Really...at least I get some space to breathe.. besides seeing all the law books everyday. Once in a while, get inspired by people like Marina is so good. That reminds me of Dr Salawati. Both of them are really into human rights.

I know what kind of lawyer I wanna be in the future but I am not sure how am I getting towards that path. Well.. study first and leave the rest for now. =) 

What is the depth of friendship these days?

What is the depth of friendship these days?

A post on the wall?

A random phone call?

A text away?

Will you make their day?

Will you skip your event,

And help them mend?

Will you give your time

and never to mind?

What is the depth of friendship these days?

A friend will love you for

Your good and flaw

A friend should apologize

When some words slice.

A friend can surely choose 

to not make use

of the understanding

your friendship sing.

A friend should make you right

When you downward slide.

A friend should help you stay

In the light of day.

What is the depth of friendship these days?

A friend may be all that

but still stay sad.

Because a friend is not a friend

If a friend does not have a friend,

To be a friend.

What is the depth of friendship these days?

(Taken from a friend's blog)

Love thy neighbour - Marina Mahathir

"My most enduring memory of Aunty Leha is how generous she is with everyone, no matter what their background. Every open house or any event at her house was attended by all sorts of people, from every ethnicity and walk of life. Aunty was friends with everyone, from the Dalai Lama to the lowliest driver, and everyone was welcome. More than anyone, she taught us that it is good decent human beings who matter, not what race or religion they are."


Quoted from http://rantingsbymm.blogspot.com/2011/03/aunty-leha-1923-2011-my-role-model-for.html.


No wonder she's(Marina) so friendly. I was thinking as I was standing there waiting to take photo with her yesterday... she smiles cheerfully at every single photo that people took with her be it foreigner.. malay...chinese.. indian.. or any other races. I mean.. how many people can do that. Personally, I've never seen anyone (big shots) really cheerful as she is and I remember she said.. "see how wide I smile =)"... Ha ha. I'm not that fond seeing big shots though I've encountered some face and face because it's nothing more than for political purposes. Besides, they aren't that friendly neither smileyyyy..

Irregardless of who you are, she agreed to snap photo with you. Not only that..whenever people talk to her, she always maintain that cheerful look. Wow! That's the thing that impress me a lot because I'm not really impressed by people who are pretty and handsome but more to their cheerfulness and friendliness. My views are always different from others. Whenever people tell me that a particular guy is handsome or a particular woman is pretty and it's agreed by majority.. I somehow don't think so. And vice versa. Some people are pretty and handsome but eventually I don't find them attractive at all because when they speak, you can sense their ARROGANCE! The way they carry themselves also show that it's as if.. "I am PRETTY/HANDSOME! WHY MUST I MIX WITH U?"

When I first hear she speaks on the stage, my impression was that.. Her voice is so sweet and she's so humble...Why do I say that? It's because everyday I've seen people who boast about themselves - imagine it's your first time meeting them and they are so afraid that you don't know how busy they are - so they start boasting.. I've been to Europe, Indonesia and bla bla bla..I'm so busy. I'm the president of this and that..I have connection with so and so.. (Nothing interesting besides all the I, ME, MY DOG AND MY CAT STORY.") aHHH! Well I expect Marina to do the same thing I guess but she didn't! Instead, she praise others for their good job in taking care of Timor Leste children and also praising the Timor Leste youth for doing well in their studies besides encouraging them at the same time too.

Hey hey hey,... It's Marina Mahathir(4th Prime Minister's daughter). Yet to think that she's so different. I've read her articles.. heard good things about her before .. but meeting her face to face is really a great privilege =)

If only all politicians are like her.. who are friendly with the citizens no matter what race they are ..  (besides trying to buy votes from us when it's near election..)

Most of all... I really praise her for her good works. One of the pictures that struck me the most was her pic visiting a Timor Leste kid in Putra hospital. Who on earth would do that? Yet Marina did. Yesterday she sang during the dinner to raise fund for the youth too.


May God bless Marina Mahathir for all her good work. I do hope that I can be like her some day. BE THE VOICE FOR THE VOICELESS.With her position, she can do many things for her own benefit but she chose to fight for the right of others.. One of the characteristic that I truly admire about her. =)

God bless you Marina!

Look at how cheerful she is.. look at her smile =))) Something that cheers me up =)))

I am just so inspired =)

I believe she has make the world a better place to live in. 

love, Your daughter

The feeling of getting older kinda scare me. Ahhhh.. never thought will live up till today. I mean I am truly thankful yet I am kinda fearful. There's always uncertainties in life and etc but yeah.. I wanna continue to learn to put my trust  in GOD for my present and future. So it's another day of celebration. I have so many things to ask for from my Father. The best gift is always from Him and I am truly looking forward to put one by one request later. ha ha ha..

God is really really good. In all my years... be it good or bad.. God has NEVER abandoned me. When I wish for people to be by my side 24 hours, I've learnt that it's impossible. Even best friends abandoned us when we need them the most. SO I learn... I learn to trust people and get disappointed. I learn to trust again.
I learn to lean on God alone. When I fail and distant myself from God, He did not force me. He gave me time to struggle. He is still there watching over me and ever willing to accept me back when I come back to Him. Yes I love Him.

God who provides all my need.

God whom I believe sent me people to inspire me, encourage me and etc when I can't hang on anymore.

God of my PAST, PRESENT & FUTURE.

Almighty God! =)

I realize and I've experienced many times how people exploit us in ways we never expect from them but well.. Need to learn to be tough like all other women around the world! Golongan yang selalu ditindas di seluruh dunia tak lain tak bukan WANITA eventhough we are in 21st century! THat also make me realize we CAN NEVER be an atheist because  we CANNOT live without GOD. Not praying not depending on God makes LIFE IMPOSSIBLE TO LIVE!

Thank You so much for knowing me so well - more than I understand myself. Thank You for bearing with me all these years. Thank You because I know You will still continue to take care of me. Thank You. Thank You for sending people in my life who believe I can do it. Who put their trust in me. Thank You. Thank You also for sending people who make my life in such difficult situation so that I might learn to be more patient and wise. Thank You that life ain't always smooth so that I can testify Your goodness in the midst of my hardship to others and encourage them - though life isn't bed full of roses but knowing YOU walk with  us and our helper in times of need is comforting.. n You did answer prayers! It makes life to exciting when prayers are answered. Of course when You are silent and prayers are not answered.. life seems so down but it's not forever. Life gets back on track and when we discover the reason.. thank You for not answering certain prayers. Thanks again. =)

Love always,
Your daughter =)

Live or die!

We are never good enough and we will never be good enough. Like during my lecture time .. I learn so much!! I learn part and parcel of life especially during public international law tutorial. We should strive to be the BEST, not only good ones. Huh! If u think you are good, wait till you be a lawyer. If you think being a lawyer is great, wait till you go to international division!!! People see you from head to toes!! Everything about you is very important. The way you carry yourself and etc. Of course the most important thing is your intellect. If you are so pretty yet no brain..then it's so pointless. I'd rather know someone who use their brain than someone who looks pretty or handsome. Competition is so great yet how many of us strive to be the best? Life is all about survival. Either you live or die. I choose to live. I can choose to die. But many times, I've chosen to live despite circumstances and people whom I really can't stand! Guess I start to love law.. not only that, I love to learn from someone especially my public international lecturer who's knowledge is something that I truly admire. And I don't simply admire someone especially if you don't use your brain in many ways!!

LIFE. 

Wise person

Talked to wise person today and feel better I think but still, I can't sleep. Sigh. I am glad that I'm able to trust people who are really close to God whom I can share with. To God be the glory always and forever. There are so many things in life which are too heavy to carry alone and we need someone to walk this journey with me. 

when it's all been said and done

When ALL HAS BEEN SAID AND DONE..why bother?

Not sure if law save me. But it definitely do in the meantime. For some reason, I thank God for the law. 

So called modern era

I long for a real conversation. Living in society that's moving towards digital era..it's getting harder n harder to have conversation with someone else (usually u see people who's eating will play with their phones n etc..there's no conversation going on at all).. If those days when u say "Hey let's catch up!" it means that we really meet and catch up with one another but today when we say that.. it means makan n showing off who's phone is better. That's all. BORING. OR I PREFER TO CALL IT BOOING! Those days people have no choice when they don't own smartphones. They try to make conversation and eventually it gets better and better. You'll see family laughing at one another's joke..sharing about their days during eating time n etc etc. How fun! I seriously don't see that anymore these days. =( how sad. Kids no longer run around. Instead, they are content sitting and playing with their I Pad.

Having conversation is one thing like asking how are you n etc..but having real conversation is another thing. Not to say that there's fake one... real conversation means really share about your life (physically..mentally and also spiritually if u believe in God lah).

Moving further n further away from something...

It's becoming so NORM. If you don't own a smartphone..u can only watch your friend playing with his/her smartphone which obviously he/she is more interested in than talking to you. Such an IMBALANCE life. Sucks! The same goes now for me. If I am not interested talking at all, playing with smartphone is always the best choice to rescue you from boringnesss. Ah! It's such a silent killer.

Likewise.... today it's becoming so norm to sleep around and have free sex to TEST whether your partner is good in bed or not. Someone said this in class today when asked by another person whether does she practise FREE SEX. Her answer is no and the  reply was this...

" HOW CAN YOU IMPRISONED YOUR LUST?"

ha ha ha! Interesting! hmmmph.

Handphone..sex.. eventually it will become custom.

PIL

When you are nobody in this world.. you are really a nobody. Today my lecturer was saying how she pretended to be the poor and asked for donation from some institution. She said she was treated rather badly. People there was like screaming at her and treated her like rubbish dump.

Yet when she goes to church (mind you, she's not Christian neither a chinese), she told the church fella how she's so poor n husband dead d (konon lah wanna act only).. n they invited her in the church n told her let's talk.

See the difference?

When you have brain..let's think before you talk. Sometimes I wonder..coming out of so called zaman jahilliah.. are we? We really come out from zaman jahilliah d ka? hmmmph. Still as dumb as ever..still as immoral as ever n etc etc.

Life as it is.


My dream is to be able to travel to the whole world and see others culture to open up my mind =) ah. Public International Law  makes me wanna know about other countries too and open up my mind to many things I never think before. 

W/o Law?

Can we live without law?

I really doubt so. This is because human nature is evil. Even with law, men tend to break them..what more if there's no law to govern men. For example, those days when people make agreement, they take each other words as proof. Yes means yes and no means no! However, in today's context, everything has to be written in black and white because we can no longer trust people based on their words alone. They can manipulate their words easily and caused harm to another party. Thus, if there's no law, one party will always be jeopardized by another party due to the evil nature of men. Another example is related to traffic law. If there's no rules and regulations about traffic, the rate of accidents are definitely gonna be very high! Laws are meant to be safeguard and guidelines to fellow citizens so that situations can be controlled. For example, if there's no guidelines for the people to stop when the traffic light turns red, the situation will turn havoc. Thus, living without law can cause havoc in the society.

Besides, we are not living in a society that's equal. Therefore, dominant party might harm the less dominant party in whatever transaction they are in if there's no law. OF course even with law, there's always harm being done to someone and that's why cases are brought before the court. It's meant to enable the victim to get access to JUSTICE. To live without law, we must accept that no one has any privilege and authority over anyone else which is so IMPOSSIBLE.

Furthermore, everyone's moral values differ from each other. Let's say A believe that it's alright to have sex with anyone of any age as long as they agree with one another but B might not agree so. Therefore, if there's one permanent law to regulate such thing, it's easier to have guidelines on what is right and what is wrong especially when dispute arises. 

Esther - New York

From my grandma

Law like love

Law, says the judge as he looks down his nose,

Speaking clearly and most severely

Law is as I’ve told you before,

Law is as you know I suppose,

Law is but let me explain it once more,

Law is The Law.

  Yet law-abiding scholars write;

  Law is neither wrong nor right,

  Law only crimes

  Punished by places and by times,

  Law is the clothes men wear

  Anytime, anywhere

  Law is good morning and good night.

by W H AUDEN

My "Kai ma"

I grew to love my godmother more and more. I find it to be so strange that a stranger would love me and care for me like her own daughter and yet I am so thankful to have them. She and her family has added the colours in my life.. 

Thank You Lord for such wonderful family. 

*My godma is the one standing in the middle. Lots of people can't believe it because she looked young. Ha ha. She's a fantastic lady. And I love her a lot. =D *

Abba Father....

O Lord..enable me...enable us..

I need You. Very much.

Hidup ini penuh dengan pelbagai dugaan.

I don't know what will happen tomorrow

But I put my trust in YOU.

and YOU alone. None other.

Jesus my helper

Just when I thought things are getting worst, Lord Jesus hears my cry...He knows and things changed =) Thank YOU JESUS =) Jesus is indeed my helper in times of need! How I wish I can be like King Solomon ...  
Amazing how stupid we can be and yet God, by His wisdom, helped us through. Indeed, by His grace, He enable us to receive all this. 

First lecture

Wow! It's been long since I update my blog. Today it's the start of new semester! Can't believe time flies. Anyway there are two classes that  I attended today. First , Jurisprudence.

I must say that it's so philosophical till I wonder  if I can cope with it or not.


"Law is good morning and good night."


No doubt it will be good to train my lazy brain to think analytically but I doubt if everyone can do that. How I wish I am Karpal Singh! ha ha

Next was Public International Law. I like the lecturer because she told us true details in life (theoretical and reality). Well, what you learn in class doesn't always apply in reality. But it's only first lecture and there goes ...ASSIGNMENTS, TUTORIALS QUESTIONS. ADOI...

I still haven't decide what elective I should take. Dilemma between SOGA and CONSUMER LAW.

As for SOGA, it's an interesting subject but I don't really like to open back my first year books and read and memorize them again in order to proceed with SOGA. Not to mention that it's not that easy to score A for SOGA.

As for consumer, it's easy to score A.

Oh Lord, help meeeee!!

From Beat-on SUCCESS. =DDD

Esther this is for you! hahaha..

Joshua 1:8

⁸ Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful.

Always on your lips = Talk about it!

Meditate on it day and night = Reflect, eat, digest!

Do = let the word transform you and renew your mind!

Then, you'll be prosperous and successful = God'll grant you success in due time!

Most importantly, you must know

1. who you are

2. whose you are

3. what does God say you are

The road to success might be lonely, dark, bleak, hence God says Joshua 1:9

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”

In due time, I know God will lift you up to be a successful lawyer, in God's term of success. May His view on success be yours too! Hence, start defining what is yours before you let the world help you to decide =). He will bless you just because of one thing, He Loves You =))

love,

beat

Allah mengerti(He understands)

Banyak perkara, yang tak dapat ku-mengerti

(There are many things that I can't understand)
Mengapakah harus terjadi, di dalam kehidupan ini

(Why do they have to happen in this life)

Satu perkara, yang kusimpan dalam hati

(One thing that I keep in my heart)
Tiada sesuatu kan terjadi, tanpa Allah peduli

(Nothing will happen without God's care)

Allah mengerti, Allah peduli 

(God knows, God cares)

Segala persoalan yang kita hadapi

(All the questions/"Whys" that we face)

Tak akan pernah dibiarkannya

(He will not let me/you/us)

Ku bergumul sendiri, sbab Allah mengerti

(To struggle alone,  for God cares!)

WORDS

Words can either build someone up or bring someone down. The consequence of wrong choice of words are great! Some commit suicide because of words. Some were hurt till the day he or she leave this world.


Matthew 12: 36-37

 ³⁶ But I tell you that everyone will have to give account on the day of judgment for every empty word they have spoken. ³⁷ For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned.”

Do you know what is the most powerful weapon on this earth? Someone asked me this before when I was a child. I thought nuclear bomb, sword or whatever weapon that come across my mind. Never before I thought it's ... 

Proverbs 18:21

"Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof."

Every word that comes out from our mouth comes from our heart. 

(Mat 15:18-19)

"But those things which proceed out of the mouth come forth from the heart; and they defile the man. For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false witness, blasphemies" 

Jeremiah 17:9

The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? 

James 3 (taming the tongue)

¹ Not many of you should become teachers, my fellow believers, because you know that we who teach will be judged more strictly. ² We all stumble in many ways. Anyone who is never at fault in what they say is perfect, able to keep their whole body in check.

 ³ When we put bits into the mouths of horses to make them obey us, we can turn the whole animal. ⁴ Or take ships as an example. Although they are so large and are driven by strong winds, they are steered by a very small rudder wherever the pilot wants to go.


 ⁵ Likewise, the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. ⁶ The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole body, sets the whole course of one’s life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.



 ⁷ All kinds of animals, birds, reptiles and sea creatures are being tamed and have been tamed by mankind, ⁸but no human being can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison.
 ⁹ With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse human beings, who have been made in God’s likeness. ¹⁰ Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers and sisters, this should not be.

¹¹ Can both fresh water and salt water flow from the same spring? ¹² My brothers and sisters, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water.

Proverbs 4:23-24
²³ Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.
²⁴ Keep your mouth free of perversity; keep corrupt talk far from your lips. 


Proverbs 10:8
The wise in heart accepts commands, but a chattering fool comes to ruin.


Proverbs 10:14
Wise men store up knowledge, but the mouth of a fool invites ruin.


Proverbs 10: 19
When words are many, sin is not absent, but he who holds his tongue is wise. 


Proverbs 12: 18
Reckless words pierce like a sword, but the tongue of the wise brings healing.


Proverbs 12:25
An anxious heart weighs a man down, but a kind word cheers him up. 


John 6:63
³ The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you—they are full of the Spirit and life.


1 Corinthians 2:4-7

⁴ My message and my preaching were not with wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit’s power, ⁵ so that your faith might not rest on human wisdom, but on God’s power.
⁶ We do, however, speak a message of wisdom among the mature, but not the wisdom of this age or of the rulers of this age, who are coming to nothing. ⁷ No, we declare God’s wisdom, a mystery that has been hidden and that God destined for our glory before time began.


Ecclesiastes 12:11
The words of the wise are like goads, their collected sayings like firmly embedded nails—given by one shepherd.




WOW! So many passages on words and tongues alone. I pray that we'd be wise in using our words.(including me of course!)

You say it best

                                      When you say nothing at all

- Ronan Keating -  

Isaiah 42:16

I like whenever people call "BIG DADDY". How we really need BIG DADDY's love. Something I truly crave for. Fame and fortune cannot really fulfill that loneliness in us - that part that needs to be filled with DADDY'S love.

Isaiah 42:16
I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them.


I can't really grasp the full meaning but I am sure I will as I walk along in this lifeeee timeeee... 

EARC: Wake up and dream. The time is now!

I truly treasure my time in EARC. Personally I never quite like Old Testament and this time there's Bible Exposition on the book of Haggai. Nonetheless who knows God still can speak to our present situation through Haggai rightttt.. The most striking verse that still strike me is "Give careful thought to your ways.." It's repeated in the book of Haggai few times. Give careful thought..not only a thought but a careful one.

There are so many flaws in my life and I start to think... Give careful thought to my ways? But amazingly these situations(those dark times in our life) are the ones that draw us closer to God than ever.

I love those plenaries time. Yeah..we were called not to spend on those branded stuff too much because there's impact and stories behind our global spending. Those branded stuff- Their factories are not in Europe country so that they can earn more (of course by using cheap labour and they work in stuffy condition!) Some were forced to work more than 12 hours just to produce those branded things.

Besides, I also made lots of new friends. Although we didn't get along at first due to language barrier, but eventually we manage to overcome it by speaking more slowly, waiting for others to speak as they struggle to speak in English, use sign language n etc etc.

I am so glad for this experience because we really encourage one another although we were from different countries especially during group sharing and quiet time. Not everyone can live pleasant life as a Christian. Life is life.

Someone said this during EARC, "You cannot live a prophetic lifestyle by being distant and safe. It's a walk that is lonely and not safe, avoided by others and not getting any help."

With technologies affecting us, it gets more and more distracting each day. Distract us from God, from real life, from this n that.. Internet is like an escape to another world.. And in one of my workshops, we did an activity which is " What do you think Jesus FB will look like?"

Ha ha.. We came out with all sorts of ideas but well, think about it..Living in digital era, I wonder what Jesus would do if He has FB, blog n etc. What will He post in FB..What kind of sms will He send? What kind of things He will comment on others blog/FB/...? Something to think about.

I dream ..but I wake up and dream. Does our dreams have the same purpose? Which is to move this world for His glory?

The apostle Paul shared an interesting insight and experience in his, " So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. " (Romans 7:21) 

Speaking about evilness..Pastor mentioned this last week. Sometimes or most of the times we end up doing what we hate..what we despise.. though we know it's wrong but we don't have the strength to overcome them. That's why we need to pray and God will be our advocate - helping us. Evil is bad but as men, sometimes we enjoy doing what is evil although it's wrong and we know it! LIFE.

May the Lord our God continue to help us to walk in this journey of faith.

FInally, today...

Today, yes today, I make my stand! It did not turn out as how I expected them to be but well, I make my stand and no turning back to it. Sometimes we made mistakes in life... Thank God for the forgiveness.

Farhan Qureshi - 3 idiots

 Today my respect for that idiot shot up. Most of us went to college just for a degree. No degree meant no plum job, no pretty wife, no credit card, no social status. But none of this mattered to him, he was in college for the joy of learning, he never cared if he was first or last. 

Interesting facts!

1. U must stay in Guangzhou for good food
2. You must stay in Shuzhou for good clothings ( they r known for their silk)
3. You must stay in Hangzhou for the sceneries ( Their westlake is beautiful)
4. U must die in Luzhou ( Luzhou is famous for its wood that makes good coffin)

Some of my dream placessss

 

Watch sunrise from Eiffel Tower.

ROME: Take an underground train ride, dine-out in small pizzerias, down a whole pizza and gulp a bottle of wine, eat gelato in front of the Pantheon, throw at coin at the Trevi Fountain (pictured here), read Angels and Demons.

ROME: Think of scooter-riding Italians against the backdrop of the iconic Colosseum. I can’t imagine the lovely and sweet-talking Italians who were fond of watching gladiators fight each other (sometimes with fierce animals) until death. But that’s all history now.

PARIS: Watch artistes paint along the Seine River, check out flee markets, drink French wine in outdoor cafes, visit the Moulin Rouge (pictured here), dine on finest French cuisine, order a croissant and expresso, visit small churches, buy a Monalisa reprint, read The Da Vinci Code.
 

 

AMSTERDAM: You’ll be damned not to visit Amsterdam at least once in your life. The vibrant city in The Netherlands is among the liveliest cities in the world yet it has maintained its old charm with its 17th century architecture against the backdrop of winding canals, which were recently declared as Unesco Heritage Site. Must-do: Bike along the canals.

BERLIN: After the fall of the Wall, Berlin had been reborn. Although the scars left by the Cold War has never been forgotten, Berlin rose from the ashes and became a cosmopolitan city by all measures but without neglecting its history and culture. Berlin’s arts scene and nightlife are worth the trip. Must-see: Brandenburg Gate

Taken from here

The Road Not Taken (Robert Frost)

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;	5
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,	10
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.	15
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.	20

The Road Taken/Not taken ?

A road may seem straightforward to a man,

yet may end as the way to death.

Even in laughter the heart may grieve,

and mirth may end in sorrow.

There is another way: to love what God commands and desire what He promises.

It can't be found except through prayer and obedience.

E.E

Prayerrrr

When stormy winds against us break
Stablish and reinforce our will
O hear us for thine own name's sake
Hold us in strength and hold us still


Still as the faithful mountain stand
Through the long silent years of stress
So would we wait at Thy right hand
In quietness and steadfastness


But not of us this strength
And not of us this constancy
Our trust is Thine Eternal Word
Thy presence our security

-Elisabeth Elliot-

Passion and Purity

Through letters, diary entries and recollections of her courtship and marriage, Elisabeth Elliot candidly shares the temptations, difficulties, victories and sacrifices of two young people whose commitment to Christ took priority over their love for each other. These revealing personal glimpses, combined with relevant biblical teaching may help to remind you that only by putting your human passion and desire through his fire can God purify your love.

One of Jim's letter to Elisabeth:

Woke early again this morning and shared my devotions with dreams of you. It bothers me somewhat that you are on my mind when I ought to be praying, and it's a discipline not to indulge overmuch in remembering. Not that I feel a conflict - I am assured that loving you is part of my life now - important as eating, and God knows, I need it. 

...



I'm glad that last is still ahead. Glad I'm not jaded by nights in bed with you, as married couples are. They can bear to sit opposite sides of the car. I'm glad I still can't quite keep my hands off you, still must be warned not to "muss you up". I have you now unravished, and that is just how I need you now. The schoolboy in me still wonders and is awkward - we've not had "experience" - which takes the edge off. We will, I suppose, get used to each other, the feel and smell and look of one another, but I am glad it is not so now. As I never felt before, I feel now that I must keep myself for you. God knows it is a stay to purity, and He knows how many shakings to purity are ahead.


I bought this book in Singapore and I truly glad to be able to keep a copy of this book. Do read this! Don't miss it! If you have read "I kissed dating goodbye" and "Say hello to courtship", do not miss out this book! Joshua Harris wrote his book based on Passion and Purity =D

From Elisabeth's journal:

Teach me to feel that Thou Art always nigh

Teach me the struggles of the soul to bear

To check the rising doubt, the rebel sigh

Teach me the patience of unanswered prayer.

George Croly (Spirit of God, Descend Upon My Heart"

When obedience to God contradicts what I think will give me pleasure, let me ask myself if I love HIM. If I can say yes to that question, can't I say yes to pleasing HIM? Can't I say yes even if it means a sacrifice? A little quiet reflection will remind me that yes to God always leads in the end to joy. We can absolutely bank on that.

Kezia's fav part of the book: "waiting on God requires the willingness to bear uncertainty, to carry within oneself the unanswered question, lifting the heart to God about it whenever it intrudes upon one's thoughts.."

TOUCHING PEOPLE CHANGING LIVES

TOUCHING PEOPLE CHANGING LIVES

Jangan cari peluang untuk main-main dengan Roh Jahat tetapi kamu tidak perlu takut akan mereka.

Rujukan Alkitab	Siapa?	Apa Yesus buat?
Markus 1: 23-26 Lukas 4:35	Seorang lelaki yang kerasukan roh jahat di Kapernaum.	Perintah, menghardik roh-roh jahat keluar.
Matius 8:28-32 Markus 5:1-8	2 orang lelaki yang kerasukan setan di Gadara/Gerasa	Yesus tanya siapa nama roh jahat  itu, perintah roh-roh jahat itu keluar, usir roh-roh jahat dengan berkata-kata.
Matius 15: 21-28 Markus 7:29 Matius 9:32-33	Anak perempuan (Kanaan) tetapi tidak berada di situ secara fizikal (sangat menderita) Bisu sebab kerasukan setan	Iman percaya ibu, kuasa Yesus tidak dibatasi oleh jarak, hanya percaya dan anak perempuannya disembuhkan. Usir roh-roh jahat keluar (driven out)
Matius 17: 14-18 Lukas 9: 37-42	Seorang budak lelaki (sakit ayan/epilepsy) – sangat menderita	Menegur dengan cara keras (rebuke!)
Markus 9:17-25	Roh jahat yang membuat budak lelaki itu pekak dan bisu	Menegur dengan keras, perintah roh itu jangan masuk lagi.
Matius 12:22 Lukas 11:14	Seorang lelaki yang buta dan bisu.	Tidak menyatakan cara Yesus sembuhkannya.
Lukas 13:10-13	Seorang perempuan yang telah delapan belas tahun dirasuk roh sehingga ia sakit sampai bungkuk punggungnya dan tidak dapat berdiri lagi dengan tegak.	Yesus melihat, panggil, lalu berkata, "Hai ibu, penyakitmu telah sembuh.", tumpang tangan ke atas perempuan itu dan perempuan itu pun berdiri.
Markus 16:9	Maria Magdalena	Yesus pernah mengusir 7 setan
Kisah Para Rasul 16:16-18	Seorang hamba perempuan dan mempunyai roh tenung (spirit of divination)	Paulus usir: 1)      Dengan nama Yesus Kristus 2)      Perintah. Kuasa dan Otoriti.