2012

What have I done in 2011? It's one of the worst year yet one of the best year as well. Worst because this year I experience accident.. and other dangers as well. But it's one of the best year because I get to complete my thesis under my mentor and being 3rd yr student is quite fun also =))

I learn a lot and yes.. I love reading law.

No doubt 2012 will bring more challenges and tears and pain but in the midst of all that, I know I will laugh and enjoy 2012 as well.

=)

May God make our year a happy one!

Not by shielding us from all sorrows and pain,

But by strengthening us to bear it, as it comes;

Not by making our path easy,

But by making us sturdy to travel any path;

Not by taking hardships from us,

But by taking fear from our heart;

Not by granting us unbroken sunshine,

But by keeping our face bright, even in the shadows;

Not by making our life always pleasant,

But by showing us when people and their causes need us most,

and by making us anxious to be there to help.

God’s love, peace, hope and joy to everyone for the year ahead! ♥♥

Blessed New Year folks! 

My dearest mentor

Yesterday I watched a movie entitled To Save a Life. That movie really touched my heart.. In some ways, I could relate to that show because it concerns college students and yes - some struggles are very very real! Then it made me think that without some people in my life, I wouldn't be who I am today. Thus, today I gave a card to someone because I know without this person, somehow I won't be this Esther this semester. I love to see her smile.. pop in her room to listen to her advise... complaint to her.. and she'll encourage me. Yeap - I always come out from her room feeling better. I truly need that and I know she speaks the truth. Where those days I had Beatrice, Carol, Swe Jyan n others to share with..now they no longer in UKM. =( life is really tough.

I truly thank God for sending people who care for me and love me for who I am in university especially in my faculty. Otherwise, I know I could not cope.

One of her reply was.. " My prayers and love will always wrap you in sadness and in happiness". =))) I'm really touched and yeah - she's really like a mother to me. I thank God for her. I know I can be the real me in front of her.

Blessed Christmas and Happy New Year 2012

One of many things that I am thankful for this semester is that I'm pampered much by my lecturer. =) treated like her own daughter.. =))

She taught me so much.. skills that I can use in other subjects as well. She correct me.. she has good sense of humour - always ready to listen and give her opinion. See? How awesome is she. I love just to pop in her room - talk - that is more than enough that someone has listening ear and encourage me.

So cool right my lecturer. =) And she's not a Chinese. So what? I really really don't like to mix with a single race only. That's so not Malaccan lah.

I am really really thankful to learn from someone who's so professional yet she has heart for her students =)

Nonetheless, I am thankful for Beat and Swe Jyan and Carol who's always there helping me though they are no longer in UKM. Awesome seniors =) Without them, I wonder sometimes how did I pull through. But of course in the midst of all these, I know God is always with me. Without God, my work is not my work. Really. I can't do much without God. It is God who gave me ideas to write.. giving me good health..strength and etc. =)

It's Christmas eve. So fast. Its time to enter into New Year pretty soon - 2012. I kinda like the number. hehehee.. Hopefully it'll be a good year leaving all the tragic happenings behind - looking forward towards new challenges and new adventure =) Sweet memory will always be remembered =)

Blessed Christmas and Happy New Year 2012.

Ah! Time flies. Entering into third year second sem soon. Wow!!!

Daffodils

When we were in the woods beyond Gowbarrow Park, we saw a few daffodils close to the water side. We fancied that the lake had floated the seed ashore and that the little colony had so sprung up. But as we went along there were more and more and at last under the boughs of the trees, we saw that there was a long belt of them along the shore, about the breadth of a country turnpike road.

I never saw daffodils so beautiful they grew among the mossy stones about and about them, some rested their heads upon these stones as on a pillow for weariness and the rest tossed and reeled and danced and seemed as if they verily laughed with the wind that blew upon them over the lake, they looked so gay ever dancing ever changing.

This wind blew directly over the lake to them. There was here and there a little knot and a few stragglers a few yards higher up but they were so few as not to disturb the simplicity and unity and life of that one busy highway. We rested again and again. The Bays were stormy, and we heard the waves at different distances and in the middle of the water like the sea.

— Dorothy Wordsworth, The Grasmere Journal , Thursday, 15 April 1802

Tak kenal maka tak cinta

Tak kenal maka tak cinta. Yes. I fall in love.

I'm in love with my thesis.

Now I know what area I want to practice in the future.

I am thankful for my beloved supervisor who taught me SO MUCH! I love meeting her and talk to her. I had fun learning and of course stress as well. Ha ha! But my supervisor is really nice. Treating us (including me) like her own child. Really. Guess that's her gift. Not many lecturers can do that.

Above all, I thank God who enable me to finish my thesis from zero. =)

Thank You Lord.

Christmas is in the air

I love December.

I love hanging out..relaxing..buying gifts and listening to christmas songs in malls.

Will I experience this again?

Currently I'm stuck with thesis, assignments, test and so many more which really don't allow me to go out. ='(

December oh December..

Few more days and it'll be 2012. It's the year I've been looking forward too =) and I shall leave behind all my tragic, pain and sorrows in 2011. tho.. I will definitely keep sweet memories close to my heart =)

Welcome 2012 soon =)

Jingle bell..jingle bell..

We wish you a merry christmas..

Silent night..holy night =)

I love all the Christmas song.

Oh wait! Let's not forget JESUS who came to earth on this beautiful day. He was born as a baby.

No wonder Christmas is such a beautiful month. =)

Thank You Lord Jesus for coming down from heaven. =)

Love You always Jesus.

Even though You are in heaven now, but I know You always watch over us. I know. =) and I thank You for that. It's really a comfort though I can't see You. =)

Blessed Christmas. ha ha.

Desire

Desire.

There's always unending desires in our life.

Desire for good food, good companionship, this and that...

But men's desire for love will never end.

They will always thirst for love. 

$$ vs talent

In Malaysia, we are so used to things don't work. In Singapore, the problem is that EVERYTHING WORKS! HA HA (According to Harith Iskandar). Last few months, I lodged a complain to the office in my hostel regarding the toilet. (Only 1/2 toilets can be used and that one also spoil!) Well, as usual, the dear office is very "fast" in their work and took few months later to check on it. Which I wonder why spend so much of your time gossiping in the office? No self improvement at all. It's quite norm and they like to shout at students because they have power over us. Alright.. be patient.

Now that they repaired the toilet but still it's quite smelly ( I wonder did they really hire right workers?)... and the lights spoil!! If we on the toilet's light, the whole floor will BLACKOUT. SO it didn't help that much. We have to go to another block to use the toilet. It's been 3 weeks.

Studying in local university isn't that nice but I'm grateful for the opportunity although I would've opted for overseas if I have the money. I've stayed in NUS before and I must say I ADMIRE THEIR HOSTEL VERY MUCH! It's user friendly - environment friendly and etc etc. Perfect for students. 


Then I wonder why some people like to make life miserable for others? Just like some laws.. people like to enact something they like - not considering the voice of the people although the problem has remained there over the years. The same goes with my college and everywhere I guess. So get use to it.

Reality is always so different from theory. I get so bored studying nowadays because none of it will apply when I work. Most often than not, to get something in the REAL WORLD, it ought to involve money. Why is that so? How come talents are not appreciated? How come money always find it's way and WIN most of the time when it fight with TALENT? 


I am really hoping that lots of DATUKS AND DATINS FROM ANY KEMENTERIAN WILL VISIT MY FACULTY. You know why? It's because when they do.. our life will be better. They will START REPAIRING this and that.. beautifying the faculty for the minister and etc. =) And I really think Minister should do that since election is coming near. lol. Students voice don't really matter that much. Minister matters more. I remember when I was young.. whenever Prime Minister/YDPA come to my hometown..suddenly you will see the road being tarred.. and everything looked nice and well. All is well out of sudden. Haih.. We pay tax but we only get to enjoy them when Minister decided they will pass by that place and etc.. Cis! 

Smile. Laugh. Be happy. Be humble.

I was really taken aback when I mistakenly address a "Datuk" as "Madam". Got stern warning. Well, whatever! At first I had the intention to ask this particular Datuk about something then when she replied me with warning tone, ah.. forget about it. 

That's the thing in life .. Be it you are a Datuk/Datin/...., what's so big deal about it? Okie maybe it's really a big deal. But in 21st century, is it still a big deal? It seems like anyone and everyone can be Datuk easily. When you was born in this world, people also call you by your name till the day before you got your title "Datuk" and then you start insisting everyone to call you Datuk. No matter what, you will still grow old and die what...So what's the big deal with insisting people calling you "Datuk" - unfriendly faces, disgust with students and etc etc? 

Okie..I'm from UKM and I know people don't look high upon UKM students and neither do I because throughout my years of studying... people have been telling us the same thing that they look down on us. SO why bother. I didn't quit studying..I will persevere till the end. Thanks to those who always make our life so miserable. My goal is just to grad, practice and earn money. Of course.. be happy with what I do. Guess that's what really matters in the end. After all that, then I can start thinking of other things... like maybe joining human rights body and etc. See how the wave goes. 

When you are nobody, you are really nobody. I have to learn the hard way in many ways... It's not like anyone is there to help me but it's all part and parcel of learning. As for some things in life, we ought to learn it through our own experience. I don't have relatives who are Datuk/Datin... Perhaps if you do, your life will be easier or maybe more miserable. Ha ha. LIfe is short lah. Be happy and humble. =) And people will remember you for life =) Not only that, you will live satisfying life too! =) 

Again... what really makes me happy these few days was the fact that I attended a charity dinner last week and Marina Mahathir was there. I didn't really know that she was coming. Guess what? When I first approach her to snap photo, she agreed right away with her smiley look. Okieeee.. I thought, "That's something unusual for a Datuk." 

I've always perceived a Datuk as someone who never smile - arrogant - usually do something nice for some particular reason that will only benefit them and etc etc.. Most often than not, they always prove me right - which is quite unfortunate. 

Well then, let me continue with Marina..Ok her full name would be Datin Paduka Marina Mahathir. Sounds grand lah her title. That time, the lights are so dim ..and the pictures I took with her end up so dark and you can't see who's in the photo. THen I adjusted the mode in my phone but still the picture resulted the same. Oh ya! Before that, I took some time to adjust and she waited patiently. It's quite normal if she would've shown agitated or annoying face but she didn't. THat day itself, I took 4-5 photos with her but only 1 photo is clear. Even then, she smile just the same in all the photos. I mean if we were to swap position, I would've ask, "Ai yo..take so many pics also take cukup ka..?" None of that sort happened. She's as polite and as smiley as ever. That's why I have such beautiful memory of her although she don't even remember my existence already..ha ha.

You know the way she smiles.. chinese would've said, "You smile like you pick up gold from somewhere..." No big deal snapping photos with  people who are not Datuks/Datins but she did agree anyway and smile all the same =) While I was waiting for my turn to snap photo with her AGAIN, I watched as others talk to her..take turn to snap photo with her and etc. One of the many things that I like...

- She smile to everyone and friendly to all - be it you are lady/man, be it you are chinese/indian/malay/mat salleh/etc etc...( That's what I call 1 MALAYSIA spirit)

There's FRIENDLY AND HAPPY ATMOSPHERE surrounding her =)) 

Then I shake hand and thank her before I leave. 

She's really DIFFERENT. Different in a good way.

Back to the unfriendly Datuk that I met today... I lose my respect altogether for her although she's quite well known. So what. In the end of the day, she left me real bad impression about her. Yes I am bothered by it but today I learn..

TITLE IS SO IMPORTANT TO SOME PEOPLE THAT THEY FORGOT THE VERY BASIC OF HUMANITY.

When I finally graduate and practice.. I would like to keep this close to my heart which is to be happy and humble always =) Happy doesn't mean literally happy all the time. That's important also but what's more important is the joy of the Lord in us that enable us to be JOYFUL in the midst of SORROW. 

To be able to laugh and smile always like Datin Paduka Marina Mahathir, it's indeed a gift. I've met people who don't know how to laugh. Really. Isn't it sad? No wonder those who don't know how to smile/laugh easily, they don't like to snap photos because all will turn out ugly - CHARCOAL FACE. They stuck in their own world facebooking/doing all the nonsensical stuff till they lost touch how to communicate in the REAL WORLD. I really feel sad for these people.

If you can laugh, laugh always. It's a gift. I love laughing moments with my friends and I remember those moments when we can laugh for half an hour or more. Beautiful =) 

Smile. Laugh. Be happy. Be humble. God bless. May God's joy, peace, love, grace and mercy always envelope you =)